Saturday, August 04, 2007

Its all about me today...

Its been a while since I've written about whats going on in MY life. Don't worry, I will not terrorize you with picutres or video clips of me...ha..ha...

Evani's birth has been a life changing experience for me. I have learnt so much in these past 5 months and still constatnly learning something new everday. I feel I have changed in so many ways, some of which is good and some bad. I now seem to have immense patience and have learnt to let go of a lot of little things which would have driven me crazy during pre-evani times. On the other hand I'm an emotional wreck and realize how much I miss the presence of my mother. I constantly feel the need to be hugged and told what a good job I'm doing balancing baby, home and work. I know it sounds silly and is not in my nature to need such sympathy or reassurance -which then again brings me to think I have changed so much. I find myself constatnly thinking of my parents and friends back home and it makes me sad that they cannot be a part of my life right now and watch my little one grow.

On the other hand I have also been feeling that I'm not doing enough things that I'm passionate about -and one day I'll wake up and find myself very old and realize that I've lost a lifetime doing an 8-5 job. 5 days a week, and a bunch of chores on weekends and in the process missed out on these precious times with Evani. Hence, I teamed up with a friend and colleague and we opened our own design studio - Wacker Design Group. I pray we can make this work and I'm able to quit my full-time job soon.

I have also teamed up with my very good friends Soma and Sanhita to start TranceFusion Dance Company. We curretnly have 6 active members and we meet regularly twice a month for practise and hope to organize a fund-raiser end of next year. In the meantime we are open to performing at other events and might also start giving lessons.

I have submerged myself into establising the studio, dance and Evani and that has brought in a lot of positive energy in me. Talking about positive energy, I have also been going to a yoga fit class every Monday and Wednesday during lunch. That has helped me keep fit and control my weight. I only wish I could eat healthy -that is something I have no motivation in. In fact these days I don't give too much thought or time to food - which might be the reason my eating habits are detoriating.

I guess that gives a detailed snapshot into my life and activities which I have not been able to share with many of you in the recent times. I think I should also mention that my best friend, Sapto (the one who is in Canada) has been a pillar of strength to me all along and I wouldn't have been able to do anything without her love and support. I am also very thankful to my brother who is always there for me and who means the world to me. I wish I was able to spend more time with him.

Ohm!

2 comments:

CGBCYouth said...

I know how (partially) you feel and how tough it can get. It seems like you're working your way towards where you want to be though-- that's great!

An 8-5 job isn't all that bad, and the time you invest in Evani will not go wasted either. I know most of the time we don't get to choose what we want to do, but we can all choose to make the best out of it. That's what I tell myself at least haha...

britvixen said...

Whenever you need a hug, just give me a call. You may not have your blood family living nearby but you have friends who love you and think of you like family. You should just call and pop by once in a while.

It's wonderful to hear that you are channeling such positive energy into your life. Life is too short to sit on the sidelines. As my favorite quote says: "Life is ours to be spent, not saved."